Welcome to my stop on the tour for Jay Crownover’s latest, Honor. I’m so excited to be part of this tour! I hope by now that you’ve read Honor, or at the very least bought it and plan to read it soon. If not, get on that. If you are a fan of gritty romance with antiheroes you just can’t help but fall for, this one is right up your alley.
Honor by Jay Crownover
Series: The Breaking Point #1
Genres: Adult, Contemporary, Romance
Publication date: October 21, 2016
Publisher: William Morrow
Format: eARC, 368 pages
How I got it: From the publisher
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Don't be fooled.
Don't make excuses for me.
I am not a good man.
I've seen things no one should, done things no one should talk about. Honor and conscience have no place in my life. But I've fought and I've survived. I've had to.
The first time I saw her dancing on that seedy stage in that second rate club, I felt my heart pulse for the first time. Keelyn Foster was too young, too vibrant for this place, and I knew in an instant that I would make her mine. But first I had to climb my way to the top. I had to have something more to offer her.
I'm here now, money is no object and I have no equal. Except for her. She's disappeared. But don't worry, I will find her and claim her. She will be mine.
Like I said, don't be fooled. I am not the devil in disguise… I'm the one front and center.
I received a complimentary copy of this book for review consideration.
This does not affect my opinion of the book or the content of my review.
“What do you think of the club?”
Her soft gray eyes widened and then narrowed. “It’s big and fancy. You can’t miss it as soon as you drive into the city.” There was a pause and her breath hitched. “You named it after me.”
I grinned at her. She was the key to everything that mattered in my world and in this city. Of course I named it after her.
“All the members got a lock or a key when they joined and paid their membership dues. The men all have a lock, one that is either open or one that is closed. If the lock is open, it means the gentleman is attached, married, has a partner, but is still up for anything and everything. The closed lock signifies that the particular man is off-limits and must engage with another member on his or her own terms.”
She lifted an eyebrow at me. “And the keys?”
I shrugged. “The women have the keys, to the locks and to the men’s hearts. Don’t they always?”
She moved a little closer and our knees brushed together, and I felt it in my balls. I sucked in a quick breath as the mere touch made my dick throb.
“So the women can just go around unlocking and locking men up all night long? They have no rules?”
“Women make all the rules when it comes to sex, Key. You should know this better than anyone.” I wanted to reach out and pull her off the edge of the desk so that she was sitting in my lap. “They have the key but they don’t have to use it, and if a member with a closed lock doesn’t want them to set them free, then that’s it. There is no pressure. There is no persuasion. It should all be mutual and it is all facilitated by men and women that want to be here. I’m pay9ing a small fortune for the people that know this industry inside and out. I built a grown-up amusement park where nothing is off-limits. People love their kink. People love their sex.”
“What about you? Do you love your sex and kink, Nassir?”
I smirked at her. “Sex is a part of life; it’s necessary and here in the Point it is currency. Kink I can give or take depending on the person on the other end of it. I’ve seen too much torture and degradation in my lifetime for the extreme and dark to be appealing.”
I saw the questions my quietly spoken words fired to life in her eyes, but instead of asking them, she was the one that decided to change the subject.
“Tell me about this business proposition you had in mind when you came to Denver. You want me to dress in latex and spank people? You want me to get on my back and spread my legs while people watch? What’s your game plan?”
I frowned at her and couldn’t stop myself from moving closer to her as she spit the harsh words out at me.
“You think I want to watch you have sex with other people. Key? You think it’s been fun for me to watch you burn your way through every available and not-so-available boy in the Point because you weren’t ready for me? I narrowed my eyes at her. “Now, which one of us needs to have some accountability?”
She flushed pink and leaned closer to me. She might be scared of me and the way I wanted her, but she never backed down, and that made my desire for her burn in a way that would never be extinguished.
“What did you have in mind, Nassir?”
Wow! What a book! First, I have to say that I must not’ve paid that much attention to the blurb/book title when I first saw it since Jay’s an autobuy/autoread author, because I didn’t realize Honor was the start of a new series. I thought it was another book in the Welcome to the Point series, but that’s not the case. It’s a spinoff that I suppose you could enjoy if you didn’t have prior knowledge of Nassir, but I still recommend reading the other books just so you have the whole story. Regardless, color me intrigued by a number of the secondary characters. Second, I wasn’t sure I could ever grow to like Nassir, but I was wrong. There’s not true atonement for his past, but I got a deeper understanding of how he became the man he is.
Nassir isn’t a good man. He’s involved in the darkest, dirtiest, most dangerous parts of The Point. He’s lurked in the background now for quite awhile and I’ve always found him intriguing, but I wasn’t sure Jay would ever write a book for him. I’m so glad she did though. Antiheroes aren’t always my favorite, but I’m willing to give them a chance. I’m so glad I did, too. He was a complicated man with really rough past, one that made him into the man he is, but there was something special about him. I can’t quite put my finger on it — and I wouldn’t tell you even if I did, because you need to figure him out on your own as you read — but, as I said above, I have a deeper understanding of him now and, yes, even an appreciation for him. Keelyn played a big part in that, too.
Neither Nassir or Keelyn are all brightness and light and good things. They’re complex. It’s really tough to describe how I felt about either of them. “Liked” isn’t quite the right word. Appreciated might be closer, though there was some fondness after a time. One thing was clear though, these two were better together. They were meant to be together. I can’t even begin to picture either of them with someone else. They took the good and the bad in each other and balanced it. They made each other better, stronger people. They would go to the ends of the Earth for the other. They would slay dragons (or, you know, other enemies) if the other was at risk. Theirs was an intense relationship and I enjoyed reading about it.
Honor was a great read. I was concerned going in that it might be too gritty, that I wouldn’t connect with the characters, but I couldn’t have been more wrong. I couldn’t put this one down once I started reading. I breezed right through it, enjoying the suspense, romance and the (slightly unexpected) feels. I can’t wait to see what’s next in The Breaking Point series. I have some thoughts about pairings I’d like to see going forward, but I’m not going to put any of those out there just yet either. There’s more story to tell and I can’t wait to see how Jay does it.
I was a man born into a fight for things I didn’t understand, things that held no value to me even as I grew into adulthood.
I wanted to be a man, not a weapon.
There had been good men and bad men in my past. There had been men I wanted to stay longer than they did and ones I couldn’t get rid of fast enough, but in the background there was always Nassir… always. I couldn’t escape his pull and not even time and distance had done anything to stop the irresistible attraction I felt toward him.
“If you’re going back to a place that puts bullets in you and to a man that you can’t stay away from, then don’t settle for anything.”
“You’re the opposite of a good man, Nassir, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t my man.”
“You kiss better than most men fuck.”
“These men we love… they should come with clear warning labels. Not that it would matter because our hearts wouldn’t pay attention anyway.”
Have you read any of Jay’s books?
Will you be reading this new series?