Forever & Always by Jasinda Wilder
Series: The Ever Trilogy #1
Publication date: December 16, 2013
Format: eBook, 390 pages
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These letters are often all that get me through week to week. Even if it’s just random stuff, nothing important, they’re important to me. Gramps is great, and I love working on the ranch. But…I’m lonely. I feel disconnected, like I’m no one, like I don’t belong anywhere. Like I’m just here until something else happens. I don’t even know what I want with my future. But your letters, they make me feel connected to something, to someone. I had a crush on you, when we first met. I thought you were beautiful. So beautiful. It was hard to think of anything else. Then camp ended and we never got together, and now all I have of you is these letters. S**t. I just told you I have a crush on you. HAD. Had a crush. Not sure what is anymore. A letter-crush? A literary love? That’s stupid. Sorry. I just have this rule with myself that I never throw away what I write and I always send it, so hopefully this doesn’t weird you out too much. I had a dream about you too. Same kind of thing. Us, in the darkness, together. Just us. And it was like you said, a memory turned into a dream, but a memory of something that’s never happened, but in the dream it felt so real, and it was more, I don’t even know, more RIGHT than anything I’ve ever felt, in life or in dreams. I wonder what it means that we both had the same dream about each other. Maybe nothing, maybe everything. You tell me.
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We’re pen pals. Maybe that’s all we’ll ever be. I don’t know. If we met IRL (in real life, in case you’re not familiar with the term) what would happen? And just FYI, the term you used, a literary love? It was beautiful. So beautiful. That term means something, between us now. We are literary loves. Lovers? I do love you, in some strange way. Knowing about you, in these letters, knowing your hurt and your joys, it means something so important to me, that I just can’t describe. I need your art, and your letters, and your literary love. If we never have anything else between us, I need this. I do. Maybe this letter will only complicate things, but like you I have a rule that I never erase or throw away what I’ve written and I always send it, no matter what I write in the letter.
Your literary love,
If there’s one universal truth in this world, it is that Jasinda Wilder’s characters will always evoke strong emotions from me. Cade and Ever were absolutely no exception to this. And, as a matter of fact, they definitely gave Jason and Becca a run for their money for the title of my favorite character couple in her books.
This book will be difficult to reveal without giving anything away, so I’ll tread carefully and focus on the emotions and the characters more than the plot. It takes place over a number of years and some are better than others, but in all it was a gorgeous love story.
It’s apparent from the first time Cade and Ever meet at art camp when they were young that they have something special. They formed quite a bond while they were at camp and its one they maintained as pen pals. The letters between them were wonderful. I thought it was a great way of telling their story. They confided in each other. They trusted each other with not only what was going on in their lives, but what was going on in each of their hearts and minds. They spent a lot of time building this relationship with each other and it wasn’t always easy. They were growing up and unintentionally causing each other pain as they started to date other people. They were so ingrained in each others lives and so important to the other that it was easy to understand how this could happen.
Cade and Ever neither one had easy lives. But they were both such great, complex characters. I bonded with them nearly immediately and, hell, even I got emotional as their relationship continued to build and they were apart. They were obviously so right for each other, so destined to be together, that it pained me when they started dating and sleeping with other people. But then, everything changes when Cade takes a chance and goes to see Ever at college. Suddenly these two broken characters who have been such a staple in each others lives are face to face and it all only gets better from there.
The first 67% of this book was a slow burn. I couldn’t have been more invested in this couple. Though they were just friends and pen pals, it was clear they were meant to be more. The bond and friendship they had built, the emotions they shared, it was perfection. When they finally collided, my heart sang. It was powerful and intense and seriously freaking hot. That’s another thing I have come to expect from Jasinda’s books: hot sex. More specifically hot, meaningful sex. The chemistry between these characters was something I won’t soon forget.
I can’t help but feel when I read, especially when I connect with characters like I did with Cade and Ever. I was an emotional wreck during this book. It absolutely ruined me and I was completely gutted at the end. But, I wouldn’t have had it any other way.